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last last sunday was so incredibly happy and i don't even know why.
Maybe it was because Jan Hai was so incredibly happy to see us. He was carrying a yellow plastic 'big bookshop' bag, and he looped the hand holding places around his tiny shoulders so it was like a yellow plastic back pack. When he saw our car turn into the drive way he was so excited and he pointed and shouted and almost came running out in front of the car (heart skipped a beat there) and my heart just surged with happiness when i saw him because he is so sanguine all the time and its such a joy to take care of him (albeit tiring at times)
and then in church the message was so... pertinent. changing from the inside out.
i mean, for ages i've tried to change my habits, to no avail usually. and i realised its the heart that has to change first. and thats hard (i mean, what isn't?) but gods word helps. i'm starting QT on the psalms, and i read one chapter every breakfast and there's no saying hoe it encourages me in the day.
I love the verse that says,
" I lie down and sleep;
I wake again, because the LORD sustains me. "
after service we went to suntec city (we being me, emily, james, rebecca, tim, parents and Jan hai)
and for lunch i had NAAN (which i never realised was so delicious)
the man at the shop was lovely and gave me and emily a discount of around 30 cents.
and the Naan itself was superb. supreme.
and for dessert i had a macdonald's hot fudge sundae, which i haven't had since i was like 6, and it was luscious.
After lunch, we walked around and we went to the fountain of wealth. the small one, for wishing. so i walked round it three times with my arm trailing in its waters and wished hard for something.
(no it was not related to X and no it was not related to o levels)
then we went up the top of the fountain and looked at the zodiac signs and their interpretations.
i am apparently scrupulous (which james pronounces as scrah-pu-lous) and a good accumulator of wealth.
James is apparently a fiery (or feery according to him) upholder of mankind (or somehting to that effect)
and emily (like Jan Hai) is something like a passionate trail blazer.
The i raced tim around the rim of the fountain (i refuse to believe that he won) and plated with Jan hai with James, and then flopped down in dizzy happiness.
because that was how i felt
intensely, supremely happy